Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Signed with the Devil

I actually did it. I signed a contract with the devil. Actually with Cisco. I had thought to myself during NS that I would never sign with Cisco. I feel that things have not been going the way it should. Hopefully, they will not terminate me for prematurely resigning from SATS.

By this, I am leaving a module of nitec DMD course. The opportunity of striving hard for O levels. In return, I am getting a stable income of at least $1300 per month. Also I will be tied to Cisco for at least a year. After that I could leave by forfeiting a month's salary.

I might go on a whole 3 years if I get transferred to outriders unit and could manage to study at the same time. Gratuity of about $3000 at the end to complete the whole circle. Through this period I want to get fit. I am also leaving the possibility of polytechnic while I am still young.

Cisco

There is an interview for Cisco auxillary police officer going on nearby from my place at Punggol CC. I hate the current job that I have as a part time paper boy. Things does not feel right for me currently. My O levels are unmanageable with my other commitment. Of course, I could work extra hard. But what is the guarantee of me getting to a good polytechnic without formal lessons.

If I sign up with Cisco, I would be bonded for a year. I might have difficulty with my current nitec lesson. But hopefully, I could work my way around it, Hey, I will even get to shoot a revolver for the first time.

Earning more than 1500 per month. Stability. Sounds like a good package. Great for starting up my capital. I hope to finally get settled to a job which earns more than 1000 for more than one year.

Monday, August 30, 2004

4 years!!

And I thought the part-time nitec course would only take 2 years of my life. I could finish faster if I took 2 modules at one go. However, since it is a new subject, the people there disallow such practice. That is what I hear.

Read in the papers about this Singaporean guy who made big in Hollywood doing special effects. My life is screwed. I want to study but lack the funds. I am hoping to find a good 9 to 5 job. Something difficult to find these days.

Trying to make money on the web would require a lot of effort. So far, I am earning peanuts. Not as I hoped for. I don't even want to mention newspaper delivery. I still lack the skills the freelance.. am I?

Sunday, August 29, 2004

The Hour of Power

I listened to Anthony Robbins and tried doing the 'Get the Edge' tape from 'Day 1'. I feel accomplished after that. Now to carry on doing it every day. I plan to run on Sun, Tues, Thurs and Sat. Do weights in Mon, Wed and Fri. I plan to get physically fit in 6 months. I want to get a GOLD for IPPT by then.

The online survey by gozingsurveys is doing well. 2 surveys so far. I would have to wait 8 weeks before being accredited. I can wait and do more surveys. Also planning to make a website for kids, revolving around my 2 kid sisters. Another plan is to sell my services as an artist online.
All these would need me to hone my artistic skills and my web designing knowledge.

Hello World, I'm coming.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Motivation

I am 22 years old. It has been 9 months since I finished national service. What do I have to show. I do not have a stable job. My part-time job as a paper boy is managed by a bunch of hypocrites. Bright side, I am doing the nitec course in Digital Media Design. Also taking this e prep course in Web Administration.

I choked. I choked when a classmate asked what my ambition in life is. Clearly this tells that I do not have a clear a path as I think I have. To succeed in life, one need to know exactly what one wants. From what I see, I am probably going towards a designing, IT line. I might want to start an online portrait drawing. Still, I need to hone my skills.

Yesterday, I met old friend Hazrul in En-Naeem mosque. I got to know that Firdhaus is doing SMU, Hairul is doing NUS. I need to live forward.

I have been listening to Anthony Robbins. I want to break out of my old self and be the man that I can. I will walk into the crowd and be able to say, "Hello world! It's me. I'm back." The greatest way to do this is probably to win a gold in Olympics, the first for Singapore.

Friday, August 27, 2004

Just Installed SP2

The long awaited Service Pack 2 is here. I just downloaded and installed the bugger. I hope the annoying disappearing IE problem will alas disappear as well. I have not tested the system long enough to notice any bugs. I hope the system would be more realiable than ever.

I would need a antivirus program to complete the suit.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Yes it is

I have to say that the back problem have been alleviated, in fact non-existent. Now, I am dreading the fact that I am not having things done as I should. I have been putting aside my studying completely. I have been sleeping to forget the load of drawing that I have to finish. Today is a fine example of such. But today is much better in that, I started with work after the extended sleep.

I skipped my lesson on Tuesday. The excuse being the rain. I must watch out for this trend from overcoming myself. My sister Nurhashimah is right to be concerned that once I start taking 'breaks' I might lose momentum. That is one problem with me that I have to overcome. The lack of drive. The lack of meaning to live. 'Hangat-hangat taik ayam'. I must follow through with what I do. Find a drive. Find passion in life.

To fill the day with meaningful things is success.

Monday, August 23, 2004

I think my helmet is too heavy

I have been questioning myself as to why my back hurts since I started the paper delivery job. I have come up to a conclusion. It has to be my helmet. My first ever helmet, with its fancy design and all. I have wanted to get a new helmet for a very long time. Just as I wanted a new handphone for a very long time. This adds a new reason to get one. Money no enough...remember.

Also today another delay of the papers, a whole hour and a half. I have my own ways in getting them back. My right eye stings. I was on my way home from work. Maybe travelling 60 - 70km/h I belief it was some insect destined to die on my eye. Squish! Hitting my eye and the bridge of my nose. Major pain. I'll live.

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Money STILL No Enough

I got my pay last Thursday. All $102 of it. Pathetic. I am hearing stories about my employers from the older birds. They have painted quite a vivid picture. Definitely not a company I would want to work in full-time or for very long. It fits my current schedule nicely for now. I would be expecting not to get my salary on time in the coming months. I have to take note that I must receive my street sample pay next month.

Again I am feeling the business vibe. I got this e-shop program. I downloaded it free from comersus. It is in asp. Something that I will be learning very soon in my Ngee Ann Polytechninc, Web Administration course. Dabbling here and there still without capital and a strong idea of what to sell.

For now, I shall concentrate on my soon of my drawings that will due in 3 weeks. And to squeeze my budget. I doubt that my pay is enough to feed my bike for the next full pay of $440. For the coming month keep myself down to earth and try to achieve small targets and balance life with my O levels, homework, work and exercise.

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

What Will The Future Hold?

I am having second thoughts about the current plan that I have for now. Currently I plan to study to qualify for a polytechnic course. And get some money doing the part-time job that I do. However, money is making me think otherwise. Some friends suggested that private education will be good. Others have suggested that a polytechnic education would be more wholesome.

Personally, I had thought that a polytechnic education would enable me to enjoy the little youth that is left in me. However, me needing 2 more subjects, and been studying for only 1 is becoming a pressure. I might produce a credit for humanities with battle scars and all. Still the result would not guarantee a place in my desired courses. IT, multimedia and sorts.

A private education is something that I am already qualified for. Then there is the money issue. To make this work, I would need to work. Work. Just the word makes me cringe. Okay as a cousin says, take work as collecting the capital for a business. I agree with him wholeheartedly that in Singapore, starting a business is the only way to break away from the crowd. Risks are there. They are there to be conquered. Additional money always helps.

Challenges will come and my religion is the only solace that is eternal. I must remember this.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Where's My Pay?

Today is the 15th. And the boss promised that I would be paid between 10th and 15th of the month. I have minimal trust of the people in the company. Yes it is a part time job. Delivering papers in the morning. It comes without benefits. The way orders go down the line have been less than professional.

I would give a day for an explanation. If a week 3 days goes without the money, I will have to report the authorities. I am beginning to see problems that I would have if I myself start my own business. Having worked in a number of organizations I understand the need to have supportive employees.

Other than work, I have not been studying as I should. I have been sleeping most of my weekend. Trying to minimize the aching that I am having throughout my body.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

ClubFITT - The Gym Within Your Reach

I am feeling the desire to transform myself into a new man. I want to get fit. I shall join ClubFITT. A 6 months off peak membership will cost $50. This will be great to keep myself motivated and lose all those unwanted kilograms.

Seriously, this seems like a good investment. Off peak means Monday to Friday till 4pm. I just need to use the gym in the morning. Right after delivering my papers, I shall make a stop there. I miss the days after BMT when I was at my physical peak.

ClubFITT - The Gym Within Your Reach

Learn from these monkeys

I found something interesting in Channelnewsasia website. It is an article regarding an experiment on monkeys. Researchers suppressed a gene in reward learning from these monkeys temporarily. This basically made the monkeys lose their balance in reward and the work required to get it. In the end they become workaholics.

As a casual reader, I learnt that we humans, like monkeys look forward to rewards in our daily life. The tool of success is to be able to visualise the rewards, our goal in life, and take the right steps to achieve it. Making the reward as real as possible would entice you more.

How It Began

I was playing around the options of my google toolbar and found this blogger thing. Filled in the information needed here it is, my first blog on this site.

Nothing exciting for now... just testing the system.