Stretching The Comfort Zone

Ramadhan

We have crossed the mid of Ramadhan. Insyallah this Ramadhan has created an impact to all of us. Alhamdulilah, I am greatful that I am still here to perform ibadah.

Well this year has been quite a trying year for me. This year I have seen reminders from Allah. One in the form of deaths. Death of a friend, neighbour and closer still, my grandfather followed by my uncle just a couple of weeks before Ramadhan. Second in the form of the war in Lebanon which have quieten down for now. Thirdly the haze that has befallen our nation. Surely the end of time is near. Of course there are more signs out there. We only need to open our eyes and mind.

I do not know if this will be my last Ramadhan. Despite all worldly distractions, I will try to do my best this month. It helps that I am on school break for the first 3 weeks of Ramadhan.

Another thing that has consistently been weighing on my mind is my future. I cannot really see myself animating for a living. At least not at this very moment. Among the reason is I am not naturally talented at this field. Even when I give my best, I do not attain the standard that I perceive to be acceptable. I am resigned to finish the course however. Perhaps I might discover something I like in this field, as I go on.

Also, at the age that I am, I really need to stop depending on my parents financially. Hence, again, I have been thinking of taking up part-time job ie. pizza rider that I was. At least for the duration for the coming second semester. I should be able to earn enough to pay for my class 3 license. Part of my choice of studying in NYP is because of the driving centre nearby. That should at least give some sense of accomplishement for the moment.

posted by Firdaus @ 1:17 AM