Feeling Good Today...
I am feeling pretty good today considering that I am out of job and without a bike. Perspective has a lot to do with it. And a lot of power. I want both my hands to be the a reminder of the existence of Allah. Today's Friday Sermon brought me the new determination. To do my very best is what Allah would want of its creatures. Never say die attitude. Always ask myself, what if I die today, what would I do... everything. How are my hands to remind me. Our hands has creases that shapes the number /\| and |/\ which is arabic for 81 and 18 on each of our hand. Theses adds up to 99, the names of Allah. I will learn this by heart again.
Bunch of Liars
My employers and the upper management are a bunch of liars. They say that they are firing 3 people. Probably these people are sick and tired of the management. As for me, I am probably the next to go. My bike is bust and I cannot work. I still have not gotten my pay, the rest of it. BUINCH OF LIARS.
Vespa broke down
My Vespa broke down yet again. I was on my way home from my nitec class when it happened. At first, the bike seems to want to move even when I got it clutched in. Then snapped. The clutch cable snapped. I had to push the bike home from Hougang Ave 8 at the junction of ave 4.
Akmost reaching home Rafi was riding his bike wondering what had happened. It's good knowing people still know you. Feel kinda miss pizza hut.
Of course I am pissed off by that fact that I still cannot afford a new bike. Perhaps a wave. That would be perfect. And doing pizza hut as well can help bring in the money.
They did it Again
They always manage to piss me off. I was not paid the full salary, even after paying late as always. The little money that I have is not enough to really get buy. I would want to join Clubfitt but still considering. Definitely need a second job. This is not enough!!! I need to get a degree. With thiskinf of pay I am not going anywhere. I want a new motorcycle. A Honda wave would be perfect. Economical. The type delivering stuffs.
Feeling Lousy
I am feeling lousy again. My pay have not come on time again. And it will not be enough for much either. I missed a place today. Don't blame me. The papers were late again and I was trying out a new route and it slipped my mind.
They are painting the lift lobby area and my balcony is disrupted from usual operations. I have not been learning my ngee ann course thingy. And I have a sketchbook to complete. I will pull this through, I know.
My fitness is nowhere better. DUH!! I have been doing almost nothing. Another day of my life.
Path to Destiny
I need to carve my destiny from today. Great people have achieved it. So will I. Planning and following through. To make a mark in life, I need to do these things.
I will give myself till end of the year to get a
respectable physique. I will concentrate on
muscle building. Running to
silver timing is another objective.
Flexibility is another. Make the goals public. I will earn my well deserved ego when I achieve this. This will lift my status of say in the family. The goal is to be a proactive member of the family and supportive of other members.
I will need a full time pay to support my education. I will enrol to a private degree course next year. All on my own 2 feet. Social climbing will assume from the boosted ego.
FOCUS
My Left Middle Finger Hurts
I got this pain in my left middle finger since early this year. I thought I got rid of it about a month ago. Thought not as painful, it came back after I played the guitar. I do not know what caused it and never really consulted a doctor about it. It might be from the time I accidentally slipped my hand into an X-ray machine. I had a very short stint doing aviation screening. I have never been a good guitarist but if this goes on I will never be one. Maybe it is a sign.
I also caught a show on channel i. It is about this 18 year old girl who died and supposed becomes a grim reaper. I could relate to her, dropout, facing adulthood. Not knowing what you should do. It makes you think how and when you will die. And most importantly...
how you lived your life. I want to get up and start to make something of my life. You cannot wait for something such as death before waking up one's idea.
The Shoe That Dropped from the Sky
So I was playing warcraft 3: Frozen Throne when a shoe fell from the sky, into our balcony. Bro Shalihin got smacked in the cheek. 411, our room is the balcony. Open space 3 levels up. Sort of a lobby, with the lift just below us. Foul play? What have we done to deserve this. Although a possibility, I doubt so. Probably some bugger airing the shoe nudged it.
End
It ended before it even began. Cisco not even. Back to the drawing board I guess. Good news is that I get to get back to drawing class. And human forms starting soon. A whole lot of whathebinbang fun for me. I am actually grinning.
One day of 'Cisco' reminded me of discipline and how I dread it. And how lacking of it I am today. This will change. Going back to newspaper delivery is the only thing I can do for now. It sucks. Life is such.
I am meant for so much more...
The Day Draws Closer
As the day comes closer, I am once again at a crossroad. I hope that this will propel me towards what I dream my life to be. I am changing my whole life strategy. I am collecting money before pursueing proper education. I am very keen of Digital Media Design and Information Technology. However, I shall keep an open mind and read up on more options before really settling to what I want to do. This is the best.
I still have things to pack for tomorrow. Saved cost by wearing dad's uniform. Mum did some alterations on them to make PSA's company logo disappear. Think MP3. Think Class 3. Think capital for business.
Also, I want to be more socially active. Make more friends. Get closer to old ones. And get into shape.
Play Punk
It is wee hours of the morning. I am supposed to go to work delivering newspaper. My bike got punctured yesterday. Luckily there was an understudy with me learning the route. I am quitting soon. And so, I backseated his bike for the rest of the journey.
The new guy just wants extra income. He wants to tag me today as well. But my bike is still at the workshop. Yeah the workshop, another bloody story by itself. There is still that other bike without the box. So, basically I just want to run away from it all for today. So I played punk. Let that Mohsin do what he deems right and earn his keep as a team leader.
Is this the right choice?
Is signing with Cisco the right move for me. I have crapped up my life all my life. I can study yet have just obtained 3 credit O levels. I can make this work if I plan and execute my move carefully. This will provide the foundation for my future endeavours. With a strong financial backing, I could invest to make more. I could put aside money for further education. I can open up a business. And many other positive things.
I do not want to be complacent. I am meant to live for so much more than this.
