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I have not been myself lately. That need not be necessarily be a bad thing. As the end of my first year is looming it just got me thinking a lot. Too much. Way too much. Wasting my time too much.
It is the whole universal thought of being. What I want to be question. The questioned that is stumped by my own inadequacies. Which specialisation would serve me the best for my greater purpose in life. Animation or interactive media.
Of course there are other questions. In the end, it is all still a big mystery. But I came out with one thing though. I want to be critcal of myself. Very critical of myself. Perhaps slightly overly critical of myself.
Then there is the question of reluctance of taking up the animation specialisation. I am damn sure that it is going to take so much work. I do not know if I want that muck workload. I know my talents.... and they are limited. I have to work at least 3 times as hard to be at a level that I would be satisfied of myself.
And then there are other questions...
Did it!
There were less than 200 people in the lecture theatre. It's because of the Polytechnics Open House and some of us were involved. There were about 6 of us who presented our work and guess what, I was the first one out. There were no representative from Group1 and 2. Naturally I was the first to face the firing squad.
It was not awful but, man I really need to learn how to storytell. After doing it I don't feel that the experience is as monumental as I visualise it to be.
At times...
At times I feel its a losing battle.
REwIrEd -- Is this the turning point?
I bought a 15m twisted pair cable an ethernet card the last weekend. I wasted time fixing up the line for my internet connection. It was all worth it. Even though I have tonnes of homework. It's just amazing how fast time flies.
I am in the second week of my my 2nd year PERGAS class. Things are good even thought hectic at times. My Storyboard tutor, Mr Dominic selected me to present my storyboard assignment(man crossing the road) during lecture. It's the entire year 1 DMD students!! That's 200 students strong. He is giving me a choice whether or not I would present my work on that day. He said that probably he had reservations on whether or not I am willing to do so.
Naturally as a introvert, I see this as a challenge. BUT I am hoping that I would be able to go through with it this coming thursday. Firstly I would like to represent the Malay community, my class 0503, being the only one chosen(cannot let them down), and most importantly myself.
Years ago I made a mistake of thinking that doing things for myself is bad. That screwed me up big time.To be or not to be...
