The Movies and the Computer
We got to class at 8 in the morning to find that there was no tutor around. Found out later that there was not supposed to be a class. We were free till 2pm. Most of class dmd0503 went to Bishan to catch Madagascar. I tagged along.
I found the prayers corner at block L. Performed Zohor after the movies. Took a look at the library and borrowed one book. Cash is depleting fast in buying supplies and such. Thus far it has been splendid. This is one course that will force me to open up. I am ready to do that instead of breaking apart and shutting down.
Still need to learn about things around the campus. Found out there was a parking spot for students' bikes. So far, I have been parking in the visitor's parking lot.
Now the computer. Got home and tag big bro together with mum and the 2 little sisters. To Sim Lim Square. Havent stepped my foot there for some time. Bro went there thinking that his motherboard is screwed. He got that and graphics card and cpu and memory.
Got back home, fixed it and still the monitor was blank. Then figured out that it was the power after testing on my system. Got the power from Hougang Mall nearby and still nothing. Eventually concluded that the monitor was the one but it was okay when configured with shimah's notebook.
So having bought all those, nothing was spoilt except the monitor which can still be used except for some glitch in DOS format.
Go Figure
Today is The Day
School will start later at 11.10am, today. I am finally going back to a 'normal' life of most Singaporeans in the sense of education. It has been a 6 year hiatus.
I cannot help thinking what will happen in the next 3 years. I want to give my best. I know that my actions will determine my outcome. I am feeling a need to conform, to be seen as cool.
But I am still very aware of what is real. I am thinking what should I wear? Who will I meet? Still, I am not pulling my hair out over these issues.
The best part is, I only to travel 10-15 minutes to get to school.
Where my money will come from?
So, Friday was the last day I worked form my aunt at Muhammadiyah. Well it was a memorable experience. If anything, it makes me want to be a better person. Uncertain, a little sad that I did not connect more with the students and the people around there more. As usual I let things go by just like that. In fact I was unable to sleep early the previous night with my mind engulfed with thoughts.
So, I have been thinking maybe I coiuld return to pizza hut. But it just seemed way too much work. Perhaps start a successful online business. That is more challenging, more responsibility and flexible hard work.
I talked about business with old camp friend Firoskhan. He, being the artsy kinda like me felt that T-shirt printing is one we could try to venture into. That backed by my dream I had a couple of months ago, of my T-shirt business making a profit of $20,000 sparked this same old idea in me again.
Sergio Mora is The Contender
I have been following the series The Contender and I feel that it is one of the best reality show on TV. You feel the determination from these guys. It is very inspiring for me. I rooted Peter Manfredo to win but it was not to be. I just thought he needed it more. Sergio is the smart one but he truly deserved it.
If only I have the focus of these guys. Another amazing guy runner uo is Alonso Gomez. He is small built compared to others, his heart is bigger than any other. Simply amazing what human beings can accomplished with heart.
Lovin' this stuff
My exams is here. My PERGAS exams that is. For those not in the know, it is a weekly religious class that I attend. Today's exams was on Fiqh and Aqidah. I think I aced Fiqh, had some trouble with Aqidah. Alhamdulillah that I managed this far and hopefully to go all the way.
There is a little set back from all this. Next semester my class will be held in Madrasah Al-Irsyad all the way in Newton area, from the current Wisma Indah in Changi Road. I don't want this to stop me though.
Whatever it is, I have learnt that learning comes in stages. You cannot just expect to be a master at anything. You have to get through that process of input of information and trying to seal the input in and produce an output when you need it. Human is a progressive race. We crave for progress and we get that through our knowledge and hard work.
Also, only one week to my poly life. A little apprehensive, I'll take what life has for me.
Zombie
Shit!! Sometimes, I just feel like a zombie. Being brainwashed by everything around me and not having control of what I do. It does not help that I am still without a sound plan of my future. Still financially dependent sucks. It felt better in the NS days, although I had less dough, I always know there is something for me for the month.
I see people my age, many have experienced life. Some with their own businesses. Some studying at degree levels. Some working. And there are some who seemed to be worse of than me. The thing is I admire people who has focus on their life. And I am sick of being 88kg. Damn, I was almost a lean 72kg. Sometimes it just feels there is too much work involved. I have always felt that my weight has been the dragging pivot of my life.
I am hoping to take part in active sports in polytechnic. I want the endorphins to consume me enough to let me get on with life and focus on the future.
Focus?? I am still clueless. So, for now, I Will focus on stretching my comfort zone in all areas. Of course not steering into immoral zones.
Kampung Buangkok
So, I decided to cycle to Buangkok to search for the illusive village there. It was 7 in the morning and I asked little bro along. So we cycled. I have a rough estimation of where the place was. As a pizza hut rider, I had delivered pizza around the vicinity of Gerald Drive.
(Cycling along gerald dr)Firstly there was a black dog. Didnt bother us. About 50m ahead, there was a brown dog. I stared at it the moment I saw it. It took that as a challenge as chased me. Instincts told me to speed up. It run along me at the side. I shouted at it when it got near. Then it kept a distance, still following me. Gave up chase after some time. Got our shirts dirtied from the puddles of muddy water we dashed through.
I kept cool all time, sensing no threat throughout but doing as I thought I should. I knew the dog could have attacked any time it wanted to. But it didnt. It was a guard dog I believe. Probably trained not to bite. Unlike my experience during primary school when I was chased by a tiny dog. I ran like I never ran before. Endorphine pumped and full of adrenaline, the dog was no where in sight when I stopped to look back.
Didnt really explore the 'village' as it didnt seem visitor friendly and dogs were everywhere. There were only the 2 of us. Made our way back after that.
Am I going anywhere??
Haven't found anything blog worthy for days. In fact I don't consider my entries blogworthy, just my outlet of expression.
Went to see grandaunt(Nek Uda) in changi hospital. It makes one think.
Polytechnic Orientation
I lived through 3 days of orientation, from Tues to Thurs. People were generally nice. Being 23, 6 years older than most people there was different. I did not place any expectation so there was no disappointment of any sort.
Still no idea how I will go through 3 years and how much of the opportunity available I would seize. Being 23, I guess, I know what I should do.... and not necessarily will do it. In fact I felt bogged at the amount of work I have to put in for the course. There is a known 10-15% dropout rate of the course. Pressure... a little.
So, my life as a student in Nanyang Polytechnic begins.
